Just feel led to share this

The following was posted by my friend, Sandra Studstill, a fellow widow and is being shared with her permission.

Author of my hope. maker of the stars, let me be Your work of art. Won't You write Your story on my heart.......
As I was sitting at the WinterJam concert last night, Francesca Battistelli was singing this song with the audience singing along and out of the blue it just hit me....do I REALLY mean those words? Do I really want to be God's work of art? And do I really want Him to write His story on my heart? And what does that look like anyway? How many chapters are in this story? And how will it end? Will the damsel in distress get her Knight in Shining Armour? The longer I stood there, the more God revealed to me that His story looks like things I never imagined such as the loss of my beloved, the death of many hopes and dreams that went along with that loss, as well as the atrocities I suffered as a child and young adult. My thought was “well, that's a pretty crappy story for You to write on my heart. Whatever happened to stories with happy endings?" But, what He also so lovingly revealed was that the story doesn't end there. There is also a story of hope and grace that one day will far outweigh the gaping wounds that are the story right now. He's in the process of mending those wounds, and I know that will take some time, but I'm finally okay with that. For the first time in a very long time, I have a sense of peace that, although this isn't the “story” that I had planned for my life, it's the story that God has had planned even before I existed. He's known my story since the beginning of time – His time. And that's what this is all about – HIS timing and HIS story written on my heart, in my life and forever etched into my soul through the blood of His Only Son. Do I still miss Michael every day? With a resounding YES, I do. I will probably miss him until the day we meet again in Heaven. But, for this moment in time, I know that what I'm living right now is God's story that He is choosing to write on my heart and I have to learn to be okay with that or else it'll eat me alive. I pray that when I am ready, the rest of His story will heal my heart and allow me to be loved again. If that's not what the Author has in mind, then so be it. However, that's what my heart desires and I pray it's in alignment with His. His timing, His will, His story....on my heart!

 WOW! Just - WOW!