48th

Forty-eight years ago this morning

I woke filled with nervous excitement. 

It was my wedding day.

This is the 12th one I have commemorated without him.

We looked forward to our anniversary each year.

We looked forward to the "big one",

The 50th

Because we were so young when we married,

We knew we would have one.

That is the very best thing about baby marriages -

We are still immortal at that point.

I love my Al, still and deeply.

Remarriage does not change that.

Today my heart longs for dinner out,

Whatever surprises we might have for one another,

Anticipation of and planning for

The one coming in two more years.

That part of my heart is sad.

But the bigger part of my heart is filled with joy.

Because while we are physically apart this day,

This 48th commemoration of our lifetime together,

I am filled with memories of love

     And fights

          And excitement at the prospects ahead

               And hopes for the future

                    And dreams.....

And the laughter

     And the tears......

Of a lifetime spent together.

I love the memories!

The music of marriage

I am sitting in his office at the church

just so I can be near him.

It is quiet as he works,

the only sounds coming from the outer office

and my keyboard.

I sneak glances at him often.

My goodness how I love that man!!!

 

I love watching his face.

He is very expressive.

I enjoyed watching him appreciate me this morning

as I brought him coffee.

I enjoyed watching him be entertained by the dog's morning exuberance.

I enjoy watching him laugh at a funny movie or TV show.

But mostly I love watching him worship.

As he sits at his desk preparing his lesson for Sunday,

I see some of the same elements of adoration

that I see on his face as he raises his hands

in praise to our God on Sunday mornings.

I see wonder.

I see thirst for more knowledge.

I see pondering.

I see understanding.

I see a man after God's own heart.

My heart swells with admiration and wonder

at his greatness!

 

I think of the song "Something Good" from "The Sound of Music":

...For here you are standing there loving me
Whether or not you should.
So, somewhere in my youth or childhood
I must have done something good.

Nothing comes from nothing,
Nothing ever could.
So, somewhere in my youth or childhood
I must have done something good.

“Something Good” (Rodgers)
© 1965, Copyright Renewed, Williamson Music Company (ASCAP) c/o Concord Music Publishing.
All Rights Reserved. Used by Permission.

Very fitting lyrics!

Indeed, I must have done something very, very good!

 

How God has blessed me!!!

To have the honor of submission and service to,

respect and admiration of

such a man as this!!!

To be loved and cherished and protected by him

as God instructs.

How God has blessed me!!!

How I love that man!!! 

 

The beautiful music of great love

and joyous marriage...........